Marijuana Legalization Increased Potency

There is an economic argument, called the “Iron Law of Prohibition” that making a drug illegal should increase the potency of that drug. The primary empirical example is that during prohibition, smugglers mostly smuggled hard liquor because it was easier to smuggle.

Its true that prohibition increases transportation costs. But there are many other factors at work that make this far from an “Iron Law.” Aside from higher transportation costs, illegal markets should have higher capital and human resource costs. Mature capital markets and high human capital employees should not be as readily available to criminal enterprises.  Funding crime is risky, so is engaging in it. 3rd party reviews of illegal goods should be more difficult to come by. If someone printed a guide to which dealers have the best cocaine in a city, law enforcement could use that to make a lot of arrests. So, information on what products are good or not is going to be less open and abundant. Finally, governments will not hold the sellers of illegal products to their claims. If your drug dealer of choice sells you some baking soda and tells you its cocaine, no judge or regulatory body will get you compensation.

The sum result of all these increased costs and decreased consumer protections should be that illegal markets are less efficient than legal markets. They should do a worse job of delivering consumers what they want. People want hard liquor and there are thousands of varieties available. But they also want beer and wine because the other things in the drink besides the alcohol are also desirable. In the case of wine, they are even considered healthy.

In the less efficient prohibition era market, all the nice forms of alcohol that people enjoy were harder to come by. This article explains that “Stolen and redistilled [industrial] alcohol became the primary source of liquor in the country.” So if you were drinking during prohibition you were probably drinking paint thinner, from which most of the toxins had hopefully been removed. And a lot of the time the toxins weren’t all removed (especially since the government demanded that more toxins should be added). So, the average concentration of alcohol increased during prohibition, but so did the amount of undesirable adulterants.  The main effect was that variety and quality was reduced.



                                    which would you choose? 


Compare that to the case of marijuana. The other stuff in a marijuana flower is not good for anything. People like the THC (actually TCHA) and CBD to some extent. Everything else will just harm your lungs without any benefit. Since pot prohibition has been curtailed (though not completely ended yet) there has been more investment in developing hybrid strains with higher concentrations of THCA. There are independent labs that will verify the concentration of each strain and consumers can rely on those numbers. There are even more potent forms of consumer marijuana now, like dabbing. Does anyone think that if marijuana were totally legalized that THC concentrations would go down? As long as people prefer more potency, the drug will get more potent in a legal market.

labeled pot

You’re not getting a label like that from a drug dealer

People will also bring up the case of opiates and Fentanyl to make the case that prohibition increases potency. Fentanyl is very potent, in some ways, butThe biological effects of the fentanyl analogues are similar to those of heroin, with the exception that many users report a noticeably less euphoric high associated with the drug.” Since Fentanyl is less desirable than other opiates, it is often erroneously sold as heroin or mixed in with poor quality heroin. If recreational opiates were legalized, I don’t think we’d see a dramatic drop in potency. Addicts develop high tolerances, and they don’t want to have to do massive injections to get their fix. Instead, we’d probably see better purities, with less undesirable adulterants. Better labeling and more precise dosing.  Theoretically, we could also see synthetic opiates developed that create more euphoria with less depression of respiratory drive, and maybe even less addictiveness. The best and brightest are not working on this problem because making the safest, most fun drugs possible is a very serious crime.

That last thought suggests a regulatory change that might make a big difference to the world. What if the FDA made a category for recreational drugs, and approved (without a prescription obviously) whatever available was most enjoyable with the fewest undesirable side effects. Is there any particular reason why people should not be able to take drugs for enjoyment if doing so harms neither themselves or others? Such a regulatory category would create incentives for real research to see what is possible. The existence of safe, non-addictive drugs that are more fun that alcohol or heroin (or even THC) could not only alleviate the current opiate epidemic, but all possible future drug epidemics.

The Nuclear Option

I am seeing lot of articles likes this uncritically reporting a private company’s press release as news.  The gist of the article is that a start-up called “Commonwealth Fusion Systems” has gotten a $50M investment to build a prototype fusion reactor. They use this illustration:


which looks like a prety cool lego playset.

Their plan is to use the same basic design as ITER but I guess with a newer type of magnet and a budget that is 0.1% of ITER’s.

I find it frustrating because articles like this pop up every once in awhile and people share them as if they represent progress. This is another one from 4 years ago. It talks up the unimportant milestone of net energy production at the National Ignition Facility, where they use lasers to compress tiny fuel pellets to create fusion and study the dynamics of the reaction to understand nuclear bombs better. No one who knows anything about it thinks its a remotely reasonable way to create fusion power.

If you don’t know much about nuclear fusion watch this quick video. Commercial fusion is the best chance we have to completely replace the carbon based energy system on Earth. Fusion power and propulsion is THE technology that we need to do anything other than pure research in space outside of Earth orbit. We know how to make fusion. We have had commercial fusion generators for decades. They make energetic neutrons which are used for imaging the ground for resource extraction. Injecting enough energy into a plasma to generate fusion is just not that hard. You can do it at home.  Lightning does it. What has been hard is to make fusion generate more power than is put into the system. But we know that the necessary power input into a plasma to get it to fusion temperatures scales more slowly than the power output. So we know how to make fusion work. We just need bigger reactors.  That’s the whole thing. There are engineering unknowns and tons of potential optimizations, but we know at the most fundamental level how to make it work. Its not a scientific problem as much as a funding problem.

Its very strange to me that we know exactly what technology we need to develop to make enormous progress on multiple fronts. And that we are in a long term period of slow economic growth and excess capital. And yet people are happy to promote trivial markers of progress in fusion rather than demanding real sizable investment. Its like Black Lives Matter celebrating any traffic stop of a black person that doesn’t end in violence. Sorry, but it’s not good enough!

Now, the libertarian in me says that the private market will make the investments and figure it out, when it makes sense to do so. But, I am not a naive libertarian. I’m a realist. We need tinkering at scale to make this technology work. ITER is going to provide that but it was started during the Reagan administration and it is still far from done! The funding for it is a trickle. ITER should achieve positive net energy but it will never be a commercial plant. The current timeline doesn’t have a commercial plant being built until 2050 or later. It may just be the case that fusion has such large positive externalities and such large up front capital requirements that no corporations can really handle it. ITER is expected to cost something like $50 Billion, and produce no revenue. Uber has spent something like $12 Billion building its business and that’s a record for private corporations. Could a corporation or consortium of corporations really swallow a bill for $100 Billion or $200 Billion before it starts generating any revenue? It doesn’t seem like it. But the US federal government blows $200 Billion like its nothing.

Every year NASA spends nearly $20 Billion. The Department of Energy spends close to $30 Billion. The Department of Defense spends over $600 Billion! If we took $10 Billion from NASA (since fusion is absolutely essential for space travel), $5 Billion from the DOE (since its the future of energy) and $10 Billion from the DOD (since fusion must be important for national security and they waste so much money anyway) then you’d have $25 Billion every year to spend on developing fusion. That means we could build 5 ITERs in the US in a decade! No one, other than some bureaucrats, would even notice whatever pointless projects would have to be cut. That is the kind of investment we need. We need different designs at scale to optimize and bring down costs.

Mr. President, if you are reading this: Do you really want the fucking french to lead in this technology with the US providing only token contributions? The International Space Station was garbage. CERN is pointless. Fusion would be worth many $Trillions. Pleasea, put some real money for fusion in your infrastructure plan to build reactors in America with American workers and American steel!

Be a Fierce Competitor

Previously we established that most forms of learning are the same thing with different names. The exception is passive “book learning” which has relatively limited value. I would also argue that the progress that a system makes and the learning it does are basically the same thing. The more things you know about the world the more things you can do in it, and the more things you do in the world the more you can learn about it. Doing new things requires learning new things and learning new things requires doing new things.

Now I assert that this singular process of learning/progressing is best way to be a valuable person and have a valuable life. One of the best way to progress is to be a fierce competitor. That means squeezing out as much performance as possible from every domain. It means trying to improve the behavior of every system of which you are a part. You as an individual, as part of a family, a community, an economy,  various polities, humanity and as part of Earth’s biology.

Why is that valuable? Clearly zero sum competitions are ubiquitous. Winning simply so others can lose doesn’t seem like it has much value.  But progress needs a measure. You can’t know how well you are doing if you don’t compare yourself to others. You can try, as Jordan Peterson argues, to compare yourself only to your past self but your memory is terrible and you are easy to fool.  That doesn’t mean that comparing the present to the past is pointless but it is incomplete. Furthermore, nearly every competition has a positive sum element. Raising the average level in practically any domain creates gains that leak out and benefit others.

The clearest domain in which to see this is the economy. Centuries ago Adam Smith explained how capitalistic competition drives firms to provide larger benefits at smaller prices and we can see everywhere how that has manifested in a vastly richer world.

To be clear, I am not saying “win” or “be a winner.” I am saying compete. The point is not the result of any given competition. Its the process of raising the bar, and thereby forcing others to do the same in a virtuous cycle.

What does it mean to be competitive at every level?

As an individual it means finding the metrics and competitions that matter to you and trying to optimize them. Whether that means the pounds you can bench press, your income or your blog traffic. There are only limited opportunities for adults to get into direct head-to-head competitions but by measuring your abilities and successes you can effectively compete against your previous self and everyone else.  It is important to look beyond the individual level to decide what domains are worth competing in.  Maximizing health, wealth and wisdom will allow you do much more for the larger systems of which you are a part. Maximizing the number of cigarettes you can smoke at once or the number of hours you sleep per day will have the opposite effect.

Make whatever organization you work for better. If you see waste or stupidity or any problem for which the solution is clear, then speak up. If the organization refuses to improve, then take your talents and efforts elsewhere. Propping up weak or failing organizations harms progress. We want the weak to die so that the strong can gather the resources and flourish.

Be an educated voter. Force politicians do better. Force governments to provide more and better services while consuming less resources. Frankly, this is the area where there seems to be so much low hanging fruit. Most people already work pretty hard. The economy is constantly innovating to increase efficiency and output. The government is relatively stagnant. Most political fights are zero sum clashes over the distribution of resources between equally matched interest groups that predictably go nowhere. Too many people seem to want to punish politicians for even trying to make compromises. This is short sighted fear. People worry, somewhat understandably, that change will make them worse off. For any given change that is somewhat likely. But the more changes there are that have more winners than losers, the higher probability that any individual will be an overall winner. In the limit as the number of good changes go to infinity the probability that everyone benefits goes to 1 (unless the distributional impact of the good changes are really highly correlated). Politicians need the incentive to find whatever compromises they can that will create more winners than losers. Voting for people who want to find compromises and improve things is the only way to create those positive incentives.

Be a discerning consumer. Force businesses to work ever harder for your money. Lazy and thoughtless consumption rewards and encourages stagnant, anti-innovative businesses and gives you a worse experience. That doesn’t mean being an “early adopter” and rewarding mere newness rather than genuine improvements. That is just a way to get ripped off and encourage wasteful fads. If we raise the bar for what we consume then businesses will rise to meet it.

At the highest level, as humanity consumes more and more of the world’s resources and creates bigger and bigger impacts on the planet, many are worried about the mass extinction that we are causing.  There is no doubt that our species is out competing the rest of life on Earth and forcing it to adapt. Many people think that by some complex causal chain the changes that our success bring about will cause our ultimate failure. But we are the most adaptable part of the most adaptable system in the known universe. Its true that we can be short sighted and exploit resources in an unsustainable way and cause harm. We’ve done that before. But as long as we suffer for our mistakes and consequently learn from them we can continue to improve. We can become more efficient at getting the maximum out of the resources that are available to us without degrading or destroying them. And then the rest of biological life can continue to adapt to the radical shock that we create.

It has become somewhat gauche to declare ourselves “the pinnacle of evolution,” but there is a sense in which it is true. We are the only species that has a chance to take life on Earth to an even higher level of success in the Universe. We can take life off the planet and spread it to the rest of the solar system and beyond. No other species that has ever lived has had that capability. Evolution is almost exclusively brutal competition for resources. And yet it is through that competition that life has conquered Earth and is now poised to extend its empire. By competing fiercely in every domain you honor and contribute to that ancient and awesome process.

I don’t know about you, but that gets me fucking pumped!

Why Am I Such a Failure

This is a a partial follow up to In Search of Lost Time.

I  notice that most of the people I “know” are extremely successful, rich and famous. When I say I know them I simply mean that if I see their face I recognize them. I’ve never met Tom Hanks or Barack Obama but I know more about them than any of my neighbors. I can barely remember a handful of my high school classmates and all my teachers are gone but I can sure remember a lot of the people who were on TV and in movies while I was in high school.

Maybe I’m a bit of an outlier.  I perhaps consume more than an average amount of media and definitely engage in less than an average amount of real social interaction. But I don’t think I am too far from the norm. Consider the phenomenon of the “box office draw.” It makes no sense to prefer to see the same people over and over in different movies. As soon as I see The Rock in a movie I know it’s The Rock, not whoever he is playing. It shatters the suspension of disbelief. Not only does having a movie star in a film make it less immersive for the audience, but it costs a fortune for the producers. Rationally, talented actors who are not widely recognizable should be the most valuable commodity in Hollywood.  If an actual friend of mine was in a movie I would definitely see it. I would want to support them and also would be very curious to see their performance. My logical mind knows that I am not friends with The Rock, so the desire to see his next film is not as strong, but I am still somewhat drawn to see it. Its worth it for movie producers to pay him 8 figures to appear in their films because they know that effect is going to operate.

Before the invention of mass media no one experienced this phenomenon. Evolution could not have prepared us for knowing so many people that we do not know. The brain has highly developed circuits for recognizing faces because being able to tell friend from foe and navigate the details of complex social interactions was vital for humans throughout our history.  Seeing a celebrity in person feels like an optical illusion.  Part of the brain is sure that they know that person well , and it fights with the rational  part that knows they are a stranger.

Throughout history (and prehistory) the majority of people that most people knew were fairly close to them in status.  That does not mean that there was not a hierarchy.  Its just that the hierarchy was compact. In a hunter-gatherer tribe there could have been people that were considered particularly wise or charming or skilled in some way or another. And conversely people that were less skilled or socially adept than average. A popular piece of “wisdom” is that you should not compare yourself to others,  since its likely to make you miserable, but it often makes sense to do so. If you can understand why some people are able to do what you cannot, you learn from them. If you can see why other people fail, you learn what not to do. There is no way that evolution intended for us to ignore the vital information contained within the social hierarchies we can see.

Humans are not intuitively good at statistical reasoning. My brain sees that the majority of the people I know are far, far more successful than me. I try to find the incremental steps that bridge that gap but I can’t intuitively sense the massive survivorship bias inherent in the situation. I can try to be more like them but I won’t get the results they have gotten. Every coin toss has gone their way or else I wouldn’t know them.  My  only choices are either to naively try to be like them and fail in frustration and envy forever, or to give up. If I give up trying to be like the lucky geniuses, then the part of my brain that thinks that I really know those people will never leave me alone.   I have no aspirations to be a movie star, but the statistically ignorant part of my brain will never let me forget that I could have been a bitcoin millionaire. I don’t compare myself to Stephen King but with enough writing practice maybe I could be achieve the level of Scott Alexander.  Or maybe I could be the next Nassim Taleb. We both have a finance background, after all, and he seems like such a weirdo.  And while I’m at it is it really too late to start being Warren Buffett? I know that there are millions of strivers for every one who achieves their levels of success but I just don’t see those failures and can’t make my brain truly understand their magnitude.

Obviously I, and everyone else, has figured out how to live with this unnatural situation. We can recognize that these comparisons are delusional. We can suppress these feelings and not experience them most of the time. And yet, I think there is a cost. This  passage in “Infinite Jest” made me feel better about it when I read it 15 years ago, and it has stuck with me ever since. Particularly this quote:

“You have been snared by the delusion that envy has a reciprocal. You assume that there is a flip-side to your painful envy of Michael Chang: namely Michael Chang’s enjoyable feeling of being-envied-by-LaMont-Chu. No such animal.”

If there is no reward to being on the other side of the fame divide, then that should relieve the pain. I can try to convince myself that I’m not missing out. However,  if true it implies that there is a massive deadweight loss. If the lucky few were able to somehow experience the envy of the rest of humanity as a form of pleasure then at least that psychic joy would be conserved. If the people that society turn into gods really became gods then that would be something. But if there is nothing but loss in this system then that is truly sad.

Trade Wars are a Tariffic Idea

There has been a lot of bitching and moaning about Trump’s plan to impose tariffs on imported Steel and Aluminum.

People say that consumers will feel pain because prices will go up. But, they shouldn’t go up by the full amount of the tariffs. Domestic supply can increase and foreign supply will decrease/shift to the lowest cost producers. End user prices will rise somewhat, but by less than the full amount of the tariffs. Furthermore, the prices of these products are already volatile and subject to the forces of global supply and demand. After the tariffs were announced the price of steel in the US climbed to around $800/ton but it was over $1100/ton in 2008. If you didn’t notice the high price of steel 10 years ago then you probably won’t notice it now either.

According to this: “Production of a ton of steel generates almost two tons of CO2 emissions, according to steel industry figures, accounting for as much as 5 percent of the world’s total greenhouse-gas emissions.”   At the margin, a tariff on steel decreases global demand and is a form of carbon tax. Carbon taxes are often considered the most efficient form of anti-global warming policy. People who claim to be worried about global warming should welcome policies that will decrease global emissions, but as soon as any policy threatens even the slightest harm to the economy the environmentalists are nowhere to be seen. It seems that virtually everyone who claims to care about the environment is actually using it as an excuse to push for policies that they like for other reasons.

Tariffs have a long history in the United States:

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100% of Federal revenue came from tariffs until the 20th Century.  Some countries still generate a large amount of income from Tariffs. For instance, The Bahamas has no income tax and generates almost all government revenues from tariffs and also by taxing tourists. Both of those revenue sources have a great feature which is that they are partially paid for by foreigners. It is economics 101 that the incidence of a tariff will be shared between the domestic consumer and foreign producer. Consumer prices will rise somewhat and producers will sell somewhat less of the produce and sell it at a lower price. The difference between what the producers sells at and the consumer pays is the revenue produced by the tariff.

If the long term goal is a world of low tariffs and fair and free trade between nations, then raising tariffs has to be part of our strategy to make that happen. If we commit to never raising a tariff then foreign nations can impose tariffs on our goods with impunity. By doing so their governments can generate revenue from US citizens. In many countries US intellectual property rights are not well enforced. That is a massive tax on US IP holders that directly benefits foreign consumers. The goal of US trade policy should be to make sure that US producers and consumers are getting the best deals they can. If US producers are being taxed by other nations but their producers are not being taxes by the US then that is a net transfer from the US to the rest of the world. The US government should do what is in its power to minimize that.

The US is in a great position to exert its market power to make trade cheaper and freer across the globe. The US is the #2 exporter in the world (behind China) but according to this as a percentage of GDP we are around 150th on a list of 183 nations. Every other major economy (and most other minor ones) are much more dependent on exports than the US. The US economy is enormous and very diverse. We mostly just trade with each other, but because our economy is so large, selling things to us is critical for most of the rest of the world economy. In a trade war we can hurt the world more than the world can hurt us. Why shouldn’t we maximize that enormous leverage to get the best trade deals we can?

We spend $700 billion annually on a military to enforce our political and economic priorities around the world. At worst a trade war would cost a fraction of that (Total US exports are only $2 Trillion/year so they would need to be cut 35% to equal the annual cost of the military). Often the actual wars that we engage have unpredictable and negative long term consequences. Almost everything we do in the middle east seems to make it worse.  If a trade war succeeds in creating lower overall barriers to trade across the world then that is positive that is unlikely to have unintended side effects. In the worst case scenario, it is a simpler matter to return to the status quo.

How do young children pick friends?

You see a lot of interesting things as a parent. My daughter is a kindergartner and I noticed something. She was listing off her list of the “BFFs” in her school and I noticed that they were all girls and they were all white (or hispanic if that is a distinction worth making). And I was wondering how she arrived at that group of friends. 6 year olds, it seems to me, are a lot more alike than different. They all seem to want to play and they pretty much all seem to want to do the same types of play.  Maybe boys play a little rougher and girls engage in more nurturing play. It seems like that a bit but its not a strong trend. They all seem to mostly like running around, crashing into each other and jumping off stuff.

Their interests seem a little more differentiated. My daughter loves “LOL Dolls” whereas I’m guessing most of the boys in her class do not. Girls seem generally more interested in girl characters and “girly” toys. Boys seem a bit more interested in boy characters and boy toys. I don’t know if there are inherent differences that the shows and toys pick up on or if there is subconscious pressure from parents for the kids to pick the more “appropriate” things. I tend to think it is more that children who are trying to develop an identity will pick characters that are more similar to them and toys that are “for” them because both will give some clues about who they are. You can learn more about being a girl from watching a girl in a movie or playing with a girly toy than you can from boy stuff.  But even if 6 year old boys and girls have somewhat differentiated interests, when they play those interests don’t seem that important. They aren’t having deep conversations about LOL Dolls for the most part.

People seem to pick friends based on some sorts of commonality. Whether its common interests or common personalities (or at least personalities that complement each other) or common outlooks on life or shared experiences. For 6 year olds, personality and interest don’t seem very differentiated, they don’t understand the concept of a personal outlook or philosophy, and they are having their shared experiences now.  So, how can they choose who to be friends with? Maybe they just choose based on the most obvious differentiating criteria: gender and appearance. Girls can relate to other girls just by the fact of being girls. Even though they do the same activities and play almost the same way as boys, just that difference is enough to make them attracted to each other. Similarly, white kids may be more attracted to other white kids, just because they look more similar.

I don’t believe my daughter has any real concept of race or racial categories. I’ve never heard her use the words “white” or “black” to describe people.  I’m not sure that she is familiar with the concept of race at all. I definitely don’t think she would explicitly choose friends based on race, but being more interested in people that are more like herself seems very plausible. Our neighbor has a daugther with a very similar name and birthday, and she finds those similarities nearly magical. I can remember finding surface level similarities like that highly significant when I was a child. If you don’t have a defined identity, then you have to kind of grab onto whatever  you can.

If this self-segregating effect is real I wonder what its influence is on local minorities. If a child doesn’t much look like any of the other children in their class, does that make it harder to make friends? Will they always just be slightly less liked by the other children who can form more homogeneous groups? If they do find it harder to make friends or make as many friends that seems like it could be harmful from a developmental perspective. I wonder if that is a cost of racial diversity.  This study on high school students suggests that self-segregation along racial lines is a thing children do, when they have the chance.

Maybe a certain amount of self-segregation by adults is optimal in order to allow their children to have enough classmates that look like them to allow them to have a good friend group.  If the racial distribution in an area is like say 70% green, 30% purple (just to simplify it to 2 imaginary races) then maybe it doesn’t make much difference. An even spread of those 2 races across the area would pretty much allow all children to have a decent number of similar looking kids around for easy friendships. But what if an area is 90% or 95% green and 5-10% purple. Then would it make more sense for the purple people to cluster? Would forcing the purple children into situations where they are almost always surrounded by green children make them less happy in the short run and developmentally worse off in the long run? Would it be worth it so that the parents of green kids can feel good about the diversity that their children are being exposed to?

In Search Of Lost Time

that which I should have done I did not do


Is life long or short? As I get older I am often amazed by how long it has been since some event happened, as long as it happened when I was an adult, and yet also amazed by how short the time span was between 2 events that happened in my childhood. How could it have been only 5 years between “Groundhog’s Day” and “Rushmore”? How could it be 20 years since “Rushmore”?? I assume this is due to a kind of compression algorithm.  Most of my life is incredibly repetitive. Every day is not exactly the same but its a few routines repeatedly endlessly with occasional differences. The differences can stand out while the repetitions get forgotten. Childhood had more changes and more milestones so more memories stick out.

For example, I know that I’ve had a lot of coffee and I can remember drinking coffee but I can’t remember very many specific instances of drinking coffee further back than a few days. The archetypal experience is retained but the thousands of individual experiences are forgotten. So, in essence the countless hours I’ve spent sipping coffee, doing work or whatever are gone. They made no lasting impression on my brain and the tens of thousands of cups of coffee that I will probably drink in the future will similarly have no effect. I will not gain any further insights into what coffee is like.
Realistically, the vast majority of the rest of my life will be taken up by a small set of mundane activities that will disappear from my mind almost instantly.

I wonder what it would feel like to have had a very long life. I’ve thought about it since reading this post on Lesswrong years ago. Would it feel much different to be 1,0000 than it feels to be 37? There would be more and more things to remember but then would the cutoff for what is worth remembering just get higher until I have no better a recollection of the past I lived through than someone could get by reading a history book?   If I spent most of my life doing the same mundane things over and over would I end up saying things like “I can’t believe Da Vinci died nearly 500 years ago. I feel like I was just talking to that guy.” If most of the memories of life have disappear into a fog, is that the poor man’s version of an infinite life?

If my life kinda sorta stretches back to infinity,  how does a dog’s life do? They are shorter lived but the repetitiveness is much greater. Can a 12 year old dog remember much of anything that happened 7 years ago? If their lives stretch back into the abyss and they have no concept of their own death are they, from their own perspective, immortal?

One way in which life is certainly not infinite is that it ends.  My life will end and there will be some things I wish I had done but did not do.  There are 2 classes of those things. One is the class of things that I could do at any time if I were willing to skip some of the comforting mundane things that I engage in nearly constantly. If I want to see the Taj Mahal I can just go. It would be expensive and upset my family, but they would get over it and I could make up for the expense by drinking a bit less coffee for awhile. If I want to have shredded abs for 1 day of my life I could just snack a bit less every day for a few months and there they would be, but it doesn’t seem to be happening.  It seems that for many of the big things that I claim to want to do, the minor conveniences and mundane activities that I actually spend my time are far more important. After all, if I went to see the Taj Mahal I would always remember that, but after a few years would my memories really be any more clear than the infinite number of images that I can find online? And sure I would feel a sense of accomplishment if I could see them abs for a minute but then that sense would fade as they did and I can’t imagine wanting to be constantly hungry to maintain them.

The other class of things that I will die not having accomplished are the things which are simply beyond my abilities. Maybe if my life really was infinite I would get to India at some point or dedicate myself to fitness for awhile, but would I ever be president? Not if other people still exist. Would I ever win an Oscar or write a bestseller? The odds don’t look good.  Even in the areas where I put a lot of effort my abilities seem to plateau at well below world class, so how could I ever achieve that level in anything where I don’t put a lot of effort? Its fatuous to think that infinite life would mean infinite major accomplishments, or even any major accomplishments.

In the limit of our effectively infinite lives do we approach 100% mundane and 0% spectacular? Is that the best we can do?

Improving yourself to improve the world